So, I haven't written about Paula Deen
because I'm not really ever incredibly eloquent when it comes to
indignation, anger, and race. After exploring my own background,
personal biases, and systemic racism in our country and my home state of
Mississippi... after spending countless conversations having my mind
opened, ideas challenged, and commitment to justice confirmed... after
crying with friends, asking for forgiveness from strangers, and
reflecting on what it means to be white and southern in a place with a
hateful history and more than difficult present when it comes to
justice, race, and equality... I really have so many thoughts and
feelings that I can't really express them.
What I will
say is that I'm always working to uncover my own prejudices and biases
in order to unseat them, and am also working to know the role I've
played in systematic, institutional racism, so as to combat that in the
world when I see, hear, or learn about it. I don't always get it right,
but I try to have a support network that challenges me when I've
slipped up (generously or not. the point is to always grow) and friends
who remind me that God wants a just world, and for that to happen, we
all have to play a role by acknowledging the things we have done or the
things we have left undone and then tackling those things head on.
When
it comes to Paula Deen, I've been angry and sad that the "queen" of
southern cooking (at least the queen to non-southerners) refused to
admit her role perpetuating a society that isn't just and for profiting
on the work of so many countless and nameless others without
acknowledgement. But, I know she's only one person and that most of the
backlash feels like its been coming from corporations that perpetuate as
much and more systematic racism and injustice with their policies and
hiring practices (I'm looking at you wal-mart) and people who are more
than happy to point out that someone else has a tiny twig in their eye,
while ignoring the giant log in their own. This gives them leave to
pretend that racism is just a problem that comes from a few backwards
and ignorant people in one region of the country. If it were only that simple.
Regardless of how YOU feel about the whole deal, I can
say that this scandal gave me a moment to pause and think about my own
relationship with race and food and the role I want Mess of Greens to play in seeking a more just world and my own oversight in acknowledgement and history.
Title: Black woman and girl cooking, Wilson, Ark.
Photographer: Jack Pavoa
Wilson Farm,
Mississippi County, Arkansas. Image from Rootsweb, courtesy of the Arkansas Historical Commission
One of the things I need to acknowledge head-on with Mess of Greens is that most southern food, southern ingredients, southern culture, was and is more than heavily influenced by African Americans in the south.
As slaves, and then later as housekeepers, black cooks toiled in the
kitchens of white people, shaping their lives with meals day in and day
out. My own family has poor white farmers and rich white Delta
landowners in our ancestry, so there is no doubt to me that much of the
food I grew up eating... that many of the recipes I share here from my
own grandmothers' cookbooks or the cookbooks of junior leagues or
southern-style restaurants...began in the minds and hands and skillets
of women and men brought to this country against their will and forced
to cook "food of the soul" for people who they feared and in many cased
hated. That's not to say that no other groups of people influenced
southern food... I think that the effect of so many cultures and
backgrounds blending together is what makes our food so particularly
delicious and meaningful to us. In fact, Michael Twitty, food historian,
writes of this phenomenon, "There and in the big house kitchen, Africa,
Europe and Native America(s)
melded and became a fluid genre of world cuisine known as Southern
food."
Does knowing that racism and slavery had
such a huge role in shaping food that I've grown up knowing as part of
my own family's culinary heritage make me feel guilty or ashamed? No.
But not acknowledging it does make me feel embarrassed and sad.
Former slaves and their children and grandchildren's contributions to
our regional and national heritage and culture should never be
ignored...but too often is concealed or covered up.
Although
I guess I can claim ignorance of so much of this history, that's just
not a valid excuse. I need to actively pursue understanding and greater
knowledge so that I don't unintentionally perpetuate the same kind of
injustice and disrespect for those southern cooks who came before me and
those who made the food I love what it is today. For this reason, I'm
planning to learn more about this food that I cook and eat, and about
the history of the vegetables, recipes, and stories behind Mess of Greens.
I've always been proud of the food that southerners eat... proud that
amid or despite a tangled, difficult, and painful history, something so
incredibly important to people of all southern backgrounds could grow.
But
in order to give credit where credit is due, and understand this
important part of my own identity (as a southern home cook) more
clearly, I'm going to take some time to read about the people who
contributed to its creation, and I hope you'll join me!
Want more eloquence in this conversation? This blog post
from food historian and cook Michael Twitty of Afroculinaria, speaks to
the Paula Deen racism scandal particularly beautifully, honestly, and
generously, certainly better than I ever could, and also catalogues some
of the history of southern food I just mentioned, so I wanted to share
Also, here's the Southern Foodways Alliance's take on things.